Excitement & Fear

I don't know what i'm feeling but i am curled up on my flowered chair so tired from the day that i feel numb. My throat hurts and i drank way too much coffee today and i cried for ten minutes this evening over my undone list. I ordered my Spring Catalogs today and am planning a Showcase of the new line soon.....but i always have the same fear before every event.....what if i am the only attendee? Excited, but fearful of failure.

i wish i felt like this now.